Thoughts

I always say I am okay when I am not. It's just that I'd rather take all the pain than explain why I am bleeding. Because even if I do, people won't understand the stories behind my permanent scars, the tragedies that lie under my wounds and the broken bones I'm trying to hide... Sometimes it's better to keep silent than to tell others how you feel because It hurts knowing they can hear you, but not understand you.

I hate getting so sad to the point where my body completely shuts down, and all I can do is just lay there and think about all my problems.. And worst feeling in the world is knowing you did the best you could, but it still wasn't good enough.

I'm so tired, I'm stressed, I'm sad, everything hurts, I'm about to break down, and I know I should be stronger than this but I am not.. I'm constantly torn between wanting to fix myself or wanting to destroy myself..

I think I just want to sleep for few months and forget about my existence and everything around me for awhile...